Sunday, October 19, 2014

I Never Had to Choose my Subject... - Keanu Gomez

Fears: taking tests, music recitals
Annoyances: homework over breaks, siblings (at times)
Accomplishments: being in advanced program since 3rd grade, becoming proficient at piano
Confusions: Latin (so hard to understand)
Sorrows: upcoming AP Chemistry test, taking 5 AP classes
Dreams: becoming some sort of doctor (Pediatrician?), travel to many countries
Idiosyncrasies: preference for symmetry, always cleaning my phone screen
Risks: rollercoasters, thrill rides
Beloved Possessions: Nintendo DS (then), iPhone (now)
Problems: impatient, constant need for organization and structure

Imagine yourself in a room filled with people whose eyes are fixated on you, intently waiting for you to begin playing the piano. Your hands are sweaty, trembling with fear and anxiety. Your mind is going blank, forgetting half of the piece which took you several months to perfect. All the while, the judges are staring at you, just waiting to critique that first note. This is pretty much me whenever I have to play the piano in front of people who I don’t know. It’s kind of funny because while I play, my mind is completely out of the music. I’m thinking about what the judges will think about my playing and I lose all my sense of confidence. This anxiety-filled sensation has led to my fear of recitals. Maybe it stems from my shy and timid nature, but even after having many, many opportunities to play in front of others, I can’t seem to completely overcome this fear. But the thing that I love about it is the overjoying sense of accomplishment that you get after the performance.

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