The Future-- Raiffa S

I don’t keep good record of things: assignments, responsibilities, memories. Which I guess is a bad thing for when I get stressed out about that thing I was supposed to do but only remembered at the absolute last second. But it also means I don’t dwell on my successes or failures for too long passed the initial rush of emotion and the reflective aftershock. And I like that. It means I have more room for my plans of what’s next and I don’t have to deal with the crushing feelings of all my insignificant mistakes. Cause really, all those stupid things I’ve done or thought I did are just that, insignificant; and calling them failures gives too much credit to my ability of risk taking. Over this past year I think I’ve started to figure out what I appreciate about teenage life. I’ve solidified a lot of the relationships that are meaningful to me and stopped trying to live for those that aren’t. And i’ve upped my cliche-ness at least 80%. Next year I hope to focus more on what I want and to stop letting my needs become second to the needs of others. I think learning to do that will be important before I can become an independent person somewhere far from here. As usual, I have a lot of expectations for the summer and for senior year but my record keeping and motivation will probably ruin those as they approach. Eh, I’ll always have Netfllix.