The Future- Mikaela Gatewood

I've always had a bit of a problem with the future. It's a scary concept; the potential to possibly fail or under-succeed is more than paralyzing. Towards the beginning of this year, my biggest issue was this constant pressure of "the future". I spent ungodly amounts of time worrying about where I would go to college, what others would think of where I went to college, whether or not I would do well in the major I chose, if I would be employable once I earned my degree, or if I would end up being a massive failure. I spent so much time caught up in the details of what I would do later in my life that I didn't focus on what was going on around me. Ultimately, it just hurt my relationships with those around me and turned me into one living ball of anxiety. What I learned from that though was that it's going to be ok. There is a very small chance that I, or any of us for that matter, are going to end up in a horrible situation. We will get jobs, we will succeed, we will be ok. So now, with this new found knowledge, I plan on relaxing my senior year. I still fully intend on keeping up with school and college applications and the likes, but the amount of time I spend focusing on things that won't matter until 10 years from now will hopefully be reduced to zero. This summer I'm going to be attending GSA for Architecture + Design (something of which I'm probably too proud of, but for someone who thought she would fail at anything she tried, this is a big deal) and spending time with my mom as she moves to New York. Next year is going to be new and different and full of facing "the future", but I'd like to think I'll be able to handle it this time around