Right Now - Taylor Stewart

At this very moment, somewhere in the world, a girl is inundating her heart with mawkish hopes – surrounding, of course, someone she can’t have. For that is the nature of humanity, a constant hunger for the unattainable. She doesn’t realize how futile it all is, but perhaps that is the beauty we can find in her situation; an innocence of desire and purity of faith untarnished by the desolate and harsh reality that is unrequited love. The subject she has fixated on isn’t even that special (let’s be honest, no one is truly unique in a world of seven billion inhabitants), but somehow her mind has distorted this truth, quixotically convinced her than he is the only one who truly understands her. Once she has fixated on this individual, there’s no turning back – not for her. She can’t forget when youth touched youth to fire, and how the melting ecstasy of a first kiss dwarfed all other experiences to unimportance and unreality. She can’t forget that he once filled her head with those idealistic ramblings, too; how he divulged to her the unblinking verity that life doesn’t have to be tragedy after tragedy. She knows that truth – she accepts it, and does her best to not unnecessarily dramatize every mundane aspect of her life, contorting reality into some syrupy, disgustingly sentimental world. This particular girl’s problem is that she physically cannot repair the gaping hole left by his absence; only replace its tenant. She’ll plug it with music for now. The lyrics may further her inane yearning, but the melodies are a soothing backdrop to her anxieties.